Guess that quote above is for people who really have awesome dads in their lives. Not for me. Broken families will always have problems no matter what.
Like my sister's friend, her dad is always so keen to take her out when he comes back. Her mum doesn't mind at all. After all, they are blood-related right? Nobody can stop a biological father from meeting his biological daughter. His dad is tooooo keen to take her out until she has to cancel plans with her friends, sacrifice a few hours of studies despite the exam early next morning and keeping her phone away for those few hours being with her dad. I wonder if that's called force instead of love~ I know how hard doing what her father wants her to.
Like my sister's friend, her dad is always so keen to take her out when he comes back. Her mum doesn't mind at all. After all, they are blood-related right? Nobody can stop a biological father from meeting his biological daughter. His dad is tooooo keen to take her out until she has to cancel plans with her friends, sacrifice a few hours of studies despite the exam early next morning and keeping her phone away for those few hours being with her dad. I wonder if that's called force instead of love~ I know how hard doing what her father wants her to.
At least that situation is better than mine. My family now consist of me and my 3 younger siblings, my mum and my stepdad. Its not that I'm not happy with my life..I am! I am grateful for what I have and I aint complaining. When I start hearing about my biological dad again, I really don't know what to respond anymore. I had lacked a lot of love from my dad 6 years ago. He remarried and my stepmum doesn't like me nor my siblings. She doesn't allow my dad to meet us not does she allow us to meet him. Bummer huh?
I had not seen my dad more than half a year now. The last time I saw him was when I was heavily sick with fever, gastric, flu, cough, throat infection all one shot and it lasted a week. At that critical moment, my mum wasn't around. Nobody was able to help me as I was crying in pain in the middle of the night. That feeling was hell. He took me to the doctor after my maid called him up and he actually hesitated. =/
Not every girl's first man is her dad. Some people were born without a dad. I am lucky to have one. Just not worth to care for it. I would do anything if he asked me to but I will not care about what's going on. Whether my siblings are complaining about our dad hadn't been visiting, whether my siblings are cursing our stepmum or even whether complaining who's fault is whose. I had been a good listener but Ill be shutting my ears for this. I do not want to suffer all these anymore.
I had not seen my dad more than half a year now. The last time I saw him was when I was heavily sick with fever, gastric, flu, cough, throat infection all one shot and it lasted a week. At that critical moment, my mum wasn't around. Nobody was able to help me as I was crying in pain in the middle of the night. That feeling was hell. He took me to the doctor after my maid called him up and he actually hesitated. =/
Not every girl's first man is her dad. Some people were born without a dad. I am lucky to have one. Just not worth to care for it. I would do anything if he asked me to but I will not care about what's going on. Whether my siblings are complaining about our dad hadn't been visiting, whether my siblings are cursing our stepmum or even whether complaining who's fault is whose. I had been a good listener but Ill be shutting my ears for this. I do not want to suffer all these anymore.
I trusted my instincts from the day I met my stepmum. Before they got married up, she was so nice and all but her 'nice' was making me throw up. I did not like her. I did not say a word when my dad said he was coming to pick us up to have dinner with her. All I did was follow. I did not want to hurt my dad's feelings.
There was once I actually complained about her to my dad, cursing her in front of my dad because I couldn't stand the way she treated my younger siblings. My dad scolded me for being disrespectful. Just because my younger siblings were still young, doesn't mean they can be pushed around. If only I could slap her then...but I knew what would happen next. I didn't. My intentions was to protect my siblings.
My dad followed what she said. She didnt want him to meet us, spend a single cent on us, ask him to tell us that he got no time for us. I just told my mum today, if something happen to one of us siblings, will he come? My mum scolded me for being negative. I dont wish it to be my siblings, I hope something just hit me to the hospital there. From there Ill know whether I'm more important or SHE is more important. From there, Ill know the truth.
I do not want to be a princess in my daddy's eyes. I just want to live my life. With or without a dad to love, I can live with it.
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| Hurts knowing people who have dads, don't appreciate their dads. |
I have a complicated life but I love it because of the wonderful people in it.
Goodnight.
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